| <\-- | from ossama · 1733833941395.0 reply |
why is it so hard for my brain to focus on something?
I feel anxious today and cannot get any work done
and I can't even accept not doing anything
That anxious feeling just sips out all of the fun
I just roam around for hours
from a thing to one more
from some thoughts to others
from distracted to bored
I lose all sense of time,
20 minutes feel like an hour
and an hour feels like a minute
I look at the clock and can't tell how long has passed
Then I think about company, but there is no one
My friends are not there, nobody is online
I can't even distract myself by talking to someone
Then I think about something
I feel like I make progress
I can feel it unraveling
and suddenly
everything vanishes
my brain moves on to something else, I go back to how I was
I start feeling like in groundhog day,
a cycle of thoughts repeating, a pattern of blurs
of course, I don't take note of it
none of it feels important enough
everything's in my head crawling
creating a sludge
brain fog
of course
I have brain fog again
woah